after awhile, you tend to notice things about yourself. self-conscious, i guess. so it's just come to my notice, that perhaps i actually suffer from attention deficit disorder, or simply put.. short attention span. its not a hard thing to notice really... you see some people put it 3 straight hours of study at one go... i'd be happy if my mind didnt drift off in 3 minutes. it doesnt only apply for study and work, i miss parts of movies because i lost attention, i never actually finish playing a whole computer game because i simply didnt care, i rarely get hooked onto serials because, it just loses steam after awhile. well, if it were only these cases, it wouldnt be bad, but its affecting my social life? some people have old best friends which they knew since they were toddlers, or at least since they were young.. i can't even think of someone im close to right now, which i've knew for more than 3 years. i just never bother keeping in touch with older friends, and they drift away. same applies for girls. some people can have crushes and fancies that span for ages.... and thats when u hear stories of someones childhood crush getting together when they're adults. i fancy a girl... i talk to her daily.. ring her up.. think about her all the time.. for 2 weeks. at most, 1 month. then i completely lose interest, cut myself off, just go kapuut! i'd actually like to write more, but i lost interest already. ta.

derek
5:10 PM

heres a lesson for everyone to learn.... and something i supposed to have learned repeatedly, but still fail to grasp. never sleep with wet hair. otherwise, u'd be waking up with a wonderful thing which is known simple as bad hair day. the bane of all things... and today.. it was just.. messy.

omgwtfbbq

so.. lesson learned.. don't bath b4 u sleep. nuff said.

derek
3:27 AM

hmm, haven't blogged in awhile (ever noticed how the word blog sounds like something u ate wrong and wanna puke?)... but today, ill make a special post, as something really eventful happened in my life! lets see how to i describe it... i woke up this morn... and mr housemate came into my room, chunking some mail at me. imagine that, snail mail! the rarest of rare for me.. and when i receive one... i dread it, coz its only bills, bills, and more bills. so... go figure.. bill from the power company.. so i open it.. and my lung collapsed... my heart skipped 3 beats... my vision goes blurry.. and i lose my touch, feel, taste, and smell.

OMGWTFBBQ

and thats what went thru my mind at that very moment. OMGWTFBBQ. for those visually impaired, or just can't read (or plain lazy to count up numbers)... thats a pic of my bill with a nice value of £936.75 written on it. yes... £936.75... for a quaterly bill. £936.75 in 3 months! when last quarters bill was £171.32. omg omg omg! haiih, how am i ever gonna come out wif the cash to pay this off... how how how.......

derek
7:08 AM

exams are such a pain. this afternoon, after my paper, i was sitting in my room, reminiscing the exam and what i did, and a tear actually trickled down my cheek. it wasnt a flood of tears (thank god for that), but this is curiously the first time ive actually felt so bad about an exam. last time i remember this, was in PMR and my dissasterous results.. but this is just a single exam paper. one. uno. satu. and im weeping over it? this really pops the bubble of macho-ism ive been building myself for the past years. sheesh. how is it even possible! i thought my tear ducts actually stopped working already! sheesh! i know.. i know... i shouldnt be thinking about the past. look into the future... whats done is done. but still.. i knew the answers to that, i knew it. i know how to do that paper, every single bloody question of it! but why couldn't i solve it? i just couldn't write out what was in my mind. it was all a blank when i really try to remember it. this is sad. i'm depressed now. and the worse thing about these moments, you have no one to console to. that's the annoying thing about being me... i make myself such a self-sustaining asshole, that when i'm really down, there's no one there for me. sob.

derek
1:50 PM

im gonna repeat something i said in an old post of mine, which i ripped from the blog of a friend of mine. ill probably make this a yearly tradition already.

Dear God,

May the area of University Of Sheffield specifically faced some major mother-nature's wrath today or early tomorrow morning (aka earthquake; flood; anything!!);
May the management of University Of Sheffield lost the exam papers on the subjects i'm taking;
May the Pro-Vice Chancellor decided to imposed a study week at the last minute and postpone the exam a week later;
May the exam questions be that of elementary exam level;
May the examiners of the papers be blind;
May I please have my very own version of "doraemon"? I kinda need him now to get the exam papers for the next three days;

and we're done... bye...

derek
12:42 PM

im dead, im screwed, im fucked.. not yet, but in 12 hours, yes...

anyone wanna go out for a drink with me someday? i really need to get out of the house.

derek
10:03 AM

one thing i notice about singaporeans.. is that they tend to end a sentence with the word "lehhhhh" or "eeehhhhhh", dragging the word for as long as it can go.... until sometimes, it reminds u of a goat (think... meehhhhhhh). maybe its from all those mandrin or hokkien which they speak so often, and integrated into their daily singlish. not that im complaning, it just makes it very very easy to distinguished between malaysians and singaporeans (with the exceptions of some johor-ians which speak the same).
another thing, they are like wolf packs, always sticking together. this is not from my experience with movies and such, but im basing off the example of singaporeans in sheffield. they really STICK together.. all of them. every single one of them (mainly the ones from the same year) often go out together, and basicly, stick together. talk about unity... but sometimes, it goes a little overboard. they rarely bother socializing with those outside of their singapoeran ring.. which actually makes the somewhat anti-social. there are exceptions, of course... one or two which have a whole other group of friends and such.. but basicly, its like that. simple ehhhhhhhhh. okay, crapped enough for now. back to attempting suicide.

derek
9:22 AM

so maybe i havent been bloggin much the past week. why? firstly, theres the heavy stress hitting me from my utter disappointment in liverpools recent performances, losing 2 very big and important games in a row (did you see how dudek did a slow motion dive to rooneys ball.... damn dudek | did you see djimi traore, under no pressure at all, tried some 360 spin move on the ball right next to the goal line.... damn traore). saddening.
and next up, theres exams. in about 34 hours time, derek wong shall thereof be known as dead man. its studies, and how i cannot cope with it. you know, this reminds me of something my friends mother told me before. she said that brilliance and genius, wears down with time, like a candle alight. everyone has the same lenght of candle, just that some starts burning later in life, and some burns earlier in life. i figure mine must've started burning REALLY early on, and by now, its nothing but a flicker of ember, just waiting to burn out. im exhausted. pooped. the fire just isnt there anymore, and it doesnt only apply to studies. for short.. i'm fucked!

derek
11:26 AM

im going anfield! ngeks ngeks ngeks! again! and for the best and most anticipated game in the world. against UNITED!! match against manks!!! against scum!!! and i got first class seats, KOP SIDE!! wahahaha, sorry yea.. but im just over-over excited over this. going crazy. ugh. summore wif morientes debut premier. may it be known that morientes has scored in every debut he made ofr his clubs or country. so manU, watch out. there was something in the air that night, the stars were bright, fernando.... he'll score a goal for you and me, for LFC... fernando...

derek
10:32 AM

new resolution for the year : PRIORITY LEVEL : RED

Anger management :
Sub-targets #1 - Do not become so siu hei about everything and anything
Sub-targets #2 - Don't start scolding people just because...
Sub-targets #3 - Don't get pissed just because people talk lansi to you

derek
11:08 AM

check this out. its a flash called hoy te amo found on newgrounds. really cool stuff, actually. its nothing high tech or flashy, but the song and the flow of the video just really gets to me. simply put, it makes me feel happy ^^

derek
7:04 AM

some thieves will really steal anything. as some of you may know (not sure if i mentioned this in my previous posts), my landlord gave us a spanking new washing machines when we moved in, and forced us to remove our high tech, far superior washing machine as he deemed it a fire hazard. so as we couldnt keep it within the house, we banished it to the deepest depths of our backyard (actually, right next to the back door), waiting for a new owner to pay us cold hard cash for it. and we got lazy, with no buyers and such.. and it sat there, waiting... and waiting.. 3 months later... it went missing. oh yes, some people in the world are such clean freaks, they'd steal a washing machine. the big huge lumbering thing which weighs at least half a ton. hell, i think renting a lorry to remove it would cost more than it. pathepic fools. either way, my house is currently deprived of a washing machine. sob =~(

derek
12:31 PM

so, we're in the new year already. so to everyone reading this, happy new year!! phew.. okay, now with that over with.. lets see... oh yea! u notice something different with the site? redesign!! i figure its time... with this pic henn wei decided to draw for me aeons ago... coupled with a simple template i shamelessly ripped off blogskins, we have a black and green site! i cant say much about this, its simplicity at its best.
ok, so what next.. ahh... here we go.. how was new year? did everyone get stoned on eve? or clubbing maybe? or simply celebrating wif friends somewhere? surely no one decided to commit the ultimate crime of sleeping through new year? did you? mine? well, was quite a bash. first, there was the painfully expensive chinese buffet we had, followed by a quick drink at a bar.. then crashing one party, and moving along to another party just before the clock struck 12. so end result? a whole lot of alcohol, a whole lot of drunkards, and alot of disgusting puke. me? dunno.. somehow, the mood to drink just wasnt there. so its a pain seeing others enjoy themselves, while i can barely do that.
next up... resolutions! so whats your resolution this year? mines simple really... lets see...

1. marry karena lam - the simplest wish of all, really...
2. better money management - which does not include calling mummy screaming "im broke!!"
3. say bye bye to vices - no gambling, no drinking, no smoking..horror!
4. study hard - 1st class honors is always something to look forward to, no?
5. world peace - yes! trying to be a miss universe competitor!

and i guess thats about it. so, im done. off to bed. happy new year.

derek
3:36 PM

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