Wednesday, July 9

M o o F a c a d e


another 24 hour ago post. i seem to be having lotsa problems posting lately. aih, sad la. here we go....

sometimes, i wonder why i actually try putting up with my own facade of innocence with everyone. maybe i've been having this half-a-good-boy image all the time, that i dont really try to spoil it. or maybe its just low self esteem. worried how others will view me in a sudden and radical change. i really wish i could just show me true face to everyone. so many things i only do with a limited group of ppl, so many things i wanna do in front of everyone. definitely low self-confidence. thats probably the biggest flaw in me. i got almost no balls. i think something, i do another. so many times i know it would've been different, only if i acted on my own thoughts, not thoughts of what others might percieve of me. come to think of it, most of my actions as of late are with others in mind, and not myself. i should be more self-centered. more self confident. less self concious. probably be better off that way. i hate this innocent facade, i wanna break free


derek
11:44 PM

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