Saturday, February 28

i gotta say, somerfield is the devil. yes, them and their 69p offer on pringles. its cheap. dirt cheap. so much cheaper even to malaysia. and it brings out the devil in everyone. for my case, i'm eating on a tube-a-day basis, as u can see in my massive empty tube collection in the picture. i got another fren whos actually did a 3 tube breakfast supplement thing. 3 tubes for breakfast, if u look at it in one way, thats a very tempting idea. anyway, this is really making my throw out my wannabe healthy lifestyle out the window. i'm still cooking from scratch, and eating my daily supplement of vitamins and fruits (and pringles), but pringles is really taking a toll on me! i'm broke, i'm fat, and i'm sad. *groan*


derek
3:03 AM

Friday, February 27

its been snowing almost daily lately, and truthfully, its getting quite annoying. alright, originally, i was like a frog under a coconut shell "katak di bawah tempurung", and was all ooohs, ahhhs over the sight of snow. even the slightest snow, and my mentality would kick back to a 5 year old, sqeauling in excitement, and rolling about in snow. but lately, given the rather often occurance of snow, its actually getting somewhat irritating. why? several reasons, in fact. one, would be that snow is wet. it does wonders to everything dry, from my shoes down to my underwear. ok, underwear only during snowfights, but i hate drying off my loafers everytime i go out when theres snow. i shouldve brought something more waterproof and didnt look like bob the builders shoes. next up, snow is slippery. its amusing, of course, seeing people slip and fall on the sidewalk, due to this wonderful miracle called snow, but my shoes isnt really made for slippery floors either. u gotta walk really slow, and have a tendency to walk like a duck. this really reminds me of what i said about girls that walk kangkang back in taylors college. annoyance no 3, snow is dirty. of course, while its falling from the sky, its white and clean. but once its on the floor, and gets stepped all over, its becomes really black and dirty. disgusting to look at, and it does wonders to white pants. tried it once, and i'm never wearing my white jeans ever again during winter. oh, and lets not forget the most important irritant of all, snow is COLD. kinda obvious things, but it really persuades you to sleep in your room under the comfort of your duvet, instead of running off to class. i wonder if my lecturer would accept snow as an excuse for my class skipping antics. hah. doubt it.


derek
7:00 PM

Thursday, February 26

a ghost from the past called me today. the one and only girl who ever changed my life so drastically. catherine. it was something somewhat unexpected, considering i've lost contact with her since november, i think. well, maybe not lost contact, but more like ignored her. i just had to get her out of my system, and stop the torture. but just when catherine was but a distant memory, she comes back at me with full force, haunting me. why did she have to call? i wish she left me alone.
but i couldnt let go... i couldnt end the call... i couldnt get off. i longed to hear her voice, longed to see her, to feel her... but now that i think about it... its been too long since we were together. 2000. 4 years. i cant belive i'm still holding onto it. anyway, we chatted and chatted for 2 hours or so... and now, here i am, thinking, could i have made a difference? maybe. either way, this would probably be the last time i'll ever talk to her. tomorrow (or was it day after?), she'll be headed off to australia to study on.. herself starting anew, and so will i. its cruel to admit it, but i was happy when she said she finally broke up with chris (apparently, long distance relationships cant work with her). she defintely deserves better than him, or me. i know she held regrets about us... i could see it from her actions everytime i took her out, but i couldnt bear trying again. either way, its over. either way, its over now. done with. the very long distance chat sorted alot of things out, and i suddenly feel another burden lifted off my back. i actually sat back and nearly sobbed for about 10 minutes. out of happiness or sadness, i dont know. the regret will always be there, but finally, catherine is out of my life for good, only to remain distant friends, with only hi's and bye's between us. it will do us both good. catherine, if you're reading this (i know you do), i wish you good luck in life, and may u enjoy the most of it. ta.


derek
4:23 AM

Wednesday, February 25

http://www.jokeworld.biz/index.html :)) LOL

annoying, isnt this? i'm sure most of you who've been using ICQ have recieved such messages in the past few days. For those who opened it with Internet Explorer, internet have pity on your poor soul. congratulations, you have infected yourself with a virus! who asked u to be such a busybody and open a message which looks so suspicious. hah! its been annoying me as of late, because everyone who does get infected, automatically forwards the message to everyone else. and HENCE, it would mean that every infectee that i know, will sent me one or more of this ever so annoying message. imagine every few minutes, you hear an "uh oh!" sound, and while wishing it was this HOT BABE trying to start a chat with u, its just another annoying prick whos been the brand new victim. oh the joy!
anyway, i ran a search on google last night to seek out this virus, and damn its new! none of the major antivirus companies actually picked it up yet. i did however, find someone else who found it. he disassembled the virus itself, and his autopsy can be found here. this followed by kaspersky labs, which made this discovery. no antivirus solution for it yet tho.
and of course, this morning, the whole world woke up and found the virus. finally, a savior. heres the list of the virus in other companies.
Trend Micro - WORM_BIZEX.A - Removal solutions can be found here
Symantec - W32.Bizex.Worm
Kaspersky Labs - Worm.Win32.Bizex
McAfee - W32/Bizex.worm
Sophos - W32/Bizex-A

ever notice how non of the names are similiar, with exception of the Bizex context? oh yes, for those who got infected, you're famous! no, actually, your virus is. its already recieving media attention here and here. tada! ok, now delete the virus and stop annoying me with those messages. i'll leave ICQ off till then. ta.


derek
10:06 PM

Saturday, February 21

look it

i woke up this morn, and finally noticed what a mess my room is in. i can't really believe i'm leaving in such a condition for the past few days. can such a mess even be livable? this is bad. a disaster. life in sheffield is seriously taking a toll on me. so, newest priotiry would be clearing up my wonderful room. be doing that tomorrow morn. wish me luck.


derek
10:07 AM

Friday, February 20

just came back from the massoc organized disco night.. slightly high in the head right now. i must say, they did manage to pull this off quite well indeed, good amount of turnout, which is a wonder... considering they had problems selling tickets to start with. so they did actually pull it off quite well. venue, was kingdom sheffield. music... hip hop, and rnb (eww...) one thing thats been the same, and will probably always be, is the fact that i CANNOT adapt to the clubbing culture of UK, especially student clubbers. they seem to have this distinct love for hip hop and rnb... something which i swear off, and will swear off my entire clubbing life. theres just no beat to it. of course, last night was a little different. with drinks going for under £1, i was just guzzling, and guzzling, and kept on guzzling. in the high condition i was, i couldve been able to dance to cheeky girls or something of that sort. anyway, it was all fun... hip hop is the type of music u can get touchy with, which of course, i'd take advantage off in my condition. hehe.. was really steamy. met a whole bunch of people that night too... most in which are friends of friends or friends, and most whose name entered one ear, and out the other the very next minute. and of course, no malaysian clubbing can end without some arse getting thrown out of the club, and fights on the road. ah, all the glitter and glory of malaysian clubbers. all in all, i enjoyed myself quite abit (minus the music and fight), and i was quite excited over this to start with, since i havent clubbed for ages. made the most out of it, and walked away with no regrets. syabas massoc for pulling this.


derek
11:24 AM

Wednesday, February 18

today, i made myself proud. for today, i actually managed to cook up a decent meal, without use of instant sauces or any form or artificial flavouring. not to mention without burning down the kitchen, its qtean achievement for me already.wasnt really too tough, but the picture i took with the webcam isnt too great, so u cant judge me from that. lemme try and explain what u see in there. bottom of the pic, would be rice and gravy. right side.. grilled lamb chops. middle top.. steamed long beans. top left.. scrambled eggs. ok, its not some 5 star chef job, but its healthy, nutriciuous, and delicious enough that i must say, i am proud of myself. maybe i'll consider joining the iron chef competition.. i already did prove i can cook. lol.


derek
7:03 AM

Monday, February 16

finally, after a 2 week absense and wait, i finally got my cash card replaced. phew. i've been owing money here and there, and my debts are tolling up. at least now, i can settle old debts, and start anew. obviously, after that, i'd be out shopping for my bare necessities. i ran out of food ages ago, and have been living off the scraps of pasta and drops of pasta sauce i have left. alas, a chance to eat some decent home cooked food. but beforehand, wallet! my arse longs to feel something pressed upon it, the lovely and soft touch of a leather wallet against my bum really does wonder. so out of this desperation, i made a very impulsive buy. it was reallly simple... drop by gap, next and topshop. gap doesnt sell wallets. topshop had these ugly button wallets. so next was the next best thing (no pun intended). really impulsive, really fast.,... like a flash, and i had a spanking new wallet. i was kinda aiming for a prada or hugo boss wallet, since i could afford it from my insurance claim, but i couldnt wait another month for the claim to go through. i need the feel of leather on my bum. next up, food. castle market.. far, but cheap, and it was easy taking the bus back. but considering my arms were already aching from my recent workouts, this was such a pain. meat, eggs, fruits, and rice is not the easiest thing to carry about. at least now, i got food for tonight... yumm. lamb chops anyone?


derek
11:50 PM

Sunday, February 15

alright... 12:05 am... 5 minutes past valentines. looks like i survived. no manic depressions. no attempted suicides. no stress induced gluttony. no overflowing tears. ok, i'm pretty much alive and well. i'll live. whew. ok, it wasnt really one bit tortourous... i kept myself either occupied or sleeping throughout the day.... when i'm not watching anime, i'll be pumping bells.. quite a healthy day, if u look at it that way. so my hand is really uncontrollably shaking right now from excess workout..... but i feel really healthy right now. if only i can keep up this schedule of mine. if only...


derek
8:17 AM



in conjuction with this wonderful corporate-hyped day called Valentines, i shall post a peom of mine, something i wrote awhile ago... but it's still within me...and it still affects me. yes, i am lame. yes, i am lonely. yes, i am bored. yes, i make a bad poem. so dont read it if you don't want to.
I looked at you the other day,
But somehow you never look my way,
With loving words, i dare not say,
Hopeless and loss, in bed i lay,
I close my eyes, and start to pray
Wishing you'll be mine to love someday

i came up with this quite some time ago, i think somewhere around upper secondary, i think, and it seems to really have gotten into me. i like it alot, and i seem to be pestered by countless people on ICQ asking me from "Are you a poet?" to "You're quite a casanova, aren't you?". quite the annoyance, if you'd ask me. so thats it for now. i'm going to a corner and start sulking. for those who matters, happy valentines. for those who don't, good day.


derek
12:57 AM

Saturday, February 14

another valentines has come.. and another one that i'm spending alone. this is so sad. i'm slightly high on beer right now... trying to drown away my miserable depression of being single for so long.. so here i shall throw out some wonderful and random facts about myself.
1. derek has celebrated 19 years of valentine alone. (not 20, since valentines is before my birthday, making it 19)
2. derek miserably fails in every valentines attempt he makes.
3. derek feels very lonely right now.
4. derek seems to be very desperate for a date right now.
5. derek is sad.

how convienient. life is such a misery. good thing is, i have 100 and 1 people joining me and my "single guys on valentines" club... which does help with this misery. at the moment, i'm thinking, valentines is just a hype made by florist to sell more roses, or made by chocolate factories to increase sales, and so on. when you're with someone, every day is valentines. every day is special. every day is unique. and i wanna go cry right now. ta.


derek
9:25 AM

Friday, February 13

ok, thanks to henn wei, i've got a nice picture of a cow.. which is gonna be the mascot for this site. i'm gonna try revamping the site when the mood comes... and we'll see how it turns out. as u can see, i've already touched on the title, and, well, its a little dark for such a light hearted cow. i'll find some other colour scheme soon enough. till then, ta!


derek
1:53 AM

Thursday, February 12

12 noon today, i find myself sitting here, blogging again. today will go down in history as the day derek skipped class his first time.... this semester, of course. soon, this will start snowballing, and from skipping once a week, i'll end up skipping whole weeks instead.... so its somewhat very productive. if only this works for study as well... studying for one day.. and soon, i'll have mood to study weeks in stretch... it would make my first class degree a very simplistic target to achieve. much misery. anyway, i'm sleepy, and depressed for some reason. i'm going back to bed. so long.


derek
8:09 PM

Wednesday, February 11

finally, some stroke of luck happens to me here. cant really call it luck anyway, because this is inadvertedly a result of my miserable luck, but what the hell, its a sign of good times. what am i talking about? someone found my stuff. yippie! well, some of my stuff, at least. to be precise, my ID, my driving license, my UCard, my ISC, Dog n Bone, and 2 crummy pictures of myself. good to know the theif isnt a sick bastard who took my photos and masturbated to it. whew for that. anyway, my bank cards are still missing high and lowly. canceled, and to be replaced soon enough. both my telcoAsia IDD cards are gone, so i'm gonna cut off contact with malaysia for awhile. scary thing is my swipecard being missing. dangerous now, that one is. meaning people can easily come and go from my flat... sheeeet. other than that, what else? cash, as expected, not found... oh ya, didi i mention they found the cards somewhere about my place? with no wallet, so i gotta get a new one... prada seems nice, heh. at least now i dont have to go thru the hassle of my missing ID and drivers license, so thats half a stroke of luck, isnt it? whew.


derek
11:23 PM



oh yes, follow up post. heres a nice pic of my soon to be equipment in arms. didnt really cost me too much, 7 kilos as maximum weight is more than fine by me... so all is good. lets just hope i can pull this off. hope. wish. hah. yes, it may seem slightly odd, you may ask "what the hell? a single dumbell? i tot it comes in pairs?" well, heres good news for you. it does. HOWEVER, i simply shared this set with my friend (in my effort to be all stingy and money minded) and one dumbell is enough for what i have in mind. i hope. i wish. hah.


derek
11:05 AM



3 a.m. in the morn, and nothing better to do with my life. i've been playing abit with my webcam lately, trying to make the most out of the pointless thing. never really found the use of it, except to chat wif my bro on MSN. well, its free, and free stuff are always better than no stuff. on a lighter and darker note, valentines is just around the corner, and i'm gonna be spending that glorious and miserable day staying at home sulking. i really am tempted to ask her out for dinner or something of that sort.... but oh well, we'll see how things goes. oh yea! i bought some dumbells. lets see if i can get into a proper workout schedule and buff myself up abit. i wished. hah.


derek
10:57 AM

Sunday, February 8

well, as says the title, went off to some place called Tim Po To or something like that, for the MASSOC organized chinese new year dinner. i must say, it was more like a EE and ME gathering, coz without us, it wouldve probably been only the commitee members enjoying a lonely dinner. some response they had for this. i kinda get the feel this years MASSOC commitee isnt too good. or maybe that last years one was just great. anyway, it was quite fun. 9 pounds is a hefty price for a chinese buffet, but this is the first place in sheffield where i truly taste malaysian style chinese food. i mean, excluding my own cooking, of course, this is real chinese food, not those british chinese food at other buffets. and slurp, was it good. can't really call it a buffet tho, they just stuffed us with so much food, we couldnt order more. 12 courses! picture that.... ok, lets see if i can recollect what we ate... in addition to white rice and friend egg rice
1. Deep Fried Spring Rolls - good ol vegetarian delight
2. BBQ Pork Ribs - tasty, my fren wanted more, ended up getting called so kua by the waitress
3. Siew Yuk & Char Siew - so damn long neva eat this, i paued alot
4. Sweet & Sour Pork - to imagine i hate this in msia, but eat this here
5. Spicy & Sour Soup - i tot it was sharkfin for a moment
6. Chili Prawns - prawns... burp
7. Herbal Beef - good stuff, healthy to boot
8. Fried Yee Mee - touch abit la
9. Deep Fried Garlic Chicken - damn nice, not enuff to go around
10. Chinese Mushrooms & Chicken - didnt even touch
11. Deep Fried Sotong - yum yum, munch munch
12. Tofu & Brocolli - not my type

it isnt in the right order, but thats what we ate, and it was so damn good. the chef is malaysian, i think... and to top that up, we had bubur cha cha and taufufa for desert. 4 bowls of taufa for me, and slurp... i feel fat right now.


derek
9:32 AM

Thursday, February 5

i did the impossible today. or what i thought was impossible. see, the case is, i brought 3 pairs of jeans to UK, and am only wearing 2 right now, since no.3 is white, and wif the rain and mud... imagine, white! anyway, conviniently, there seems to be a big rip in both jeans at the same time. so, i picked up this dust collecting sewing kit my mum forced me to bring to shef, and started to attempt repairing my underwear showing jeans. hahaha, was quite a success, if i could say... it looks like a below-par, one level below ametuer type job, but it did fulfil its duty of sealing the rip up, and thats good. no hole in pants makes my day for now. on the side note, i've settled most my post theft stuff, and got a new sim card. less than 24 hours after reporting, i get myself a spanking new sim. now THATS efficiency. gotta still settle abit of my insurance thingy, and my solo card is replacing withing 6 working days, so for the next week, i'm broke and will be leeching off chen sern and the rest. oh yes, and scary movie 3 is fun. ta.


derek
9:14 AM

Wednesday, February 4

mm.. here i go. explicit contents, so watch out. first and foremost, FUCK SHEFFIELD! seriously man.. the university prospectus for sheffield was so laced with wonder and glory, and what do we see there? Safest City in UK 2002. Safest city MY FUCKING ASS! Iraq would probably be safer. apparently, 2002 was so great, but they failed to mention that 2003, sheffield has lowest cops to population ratio, and south yorkshire has the highest burglary thefts in the whole of UK. so basicly, i'm living in a criminal haven. yippie! alright, lets start explaining things then. i'm gonna cut the long story short, but basicly, some arsewipe trash walked into my room this morn, and walked out conviniently carrying my wallet, my handphone, and my gameboy. fuck man! this is yet another of my 'sheffield luck' that seems to be plague-ing me. first, the laptop, then the conjob, then the subpeona, and now, this. 4 months, 4 wonders. seriously, right now, i so wanna go back to malaysia. sheffield just isnt doing me any good. i cant imagine another 18 months or so here. and whats even better to boot, the fucking theft occured 1 hour before my maths paper. so i see myself, searching my room high and low for my fucking handphone, and panic and anxiety attacks. blackout. and next thing i know, whoosh! there goes all i've studied for maths. at least i have a valid excuse to fail math then. i'm thinking more of my handphone and wallet than fourier and laplace. worse part is, my wallet. thankfully. after laptop, i got most my stuff insured, but MY WALLET! theres my I.C inside, and my Driving Licence there. two of the most vital things. fuck man. this is so annoying. i've already practically drank half a bottle of vodka wif my frens.. fucking high, fucking annoyed. what i really feel like doing right now, is just walking up and give a nice fist to the arsehole of a flatmate of mines face. i seriously am beginning to suspect him ALOT, for multiple reasons. he's the one that left the front door unlocked, for one. and between him leaving flat door open, and me discovering it was missing.. 5 minutes. 5 FUCKING MINUTES! i mean, geez! u gotta be really great on timing as a theif to do it in a timeframe of 5 minutes, without knowing the door was locked or the items in the room. fuck man, so annoying. damn.... i'm pissed. going to punch the wall or something. ta.


derek
10:27 AM



exams are finally over. whew. now that thats off my back, lets go into another interesting happening in the life of derek wong. apparently, my sheffield luck has struck me again. the victim this time, my wallet, my handphone, and my gameboy sp. don't know what i'm talking about? i'll explain later... going out now. but just a clue for those clueless, think laptop.


derek
3:40 AM

Monday, February 2

yo! just woke up, saw the time.. 12 midnight in malaysia, and i just remembered, phils having some drunken birthday party right now. so i pick up the phone, and dail him up. damn they were having some fun. From what i heard, phil's a wreck, so is adrian, eugene and several others. rabi went back early with that vampire of his. ron teo didnt turn up, sadly.. i was feeling really insultive at that moment, and i was pretty sure whatever i fired wouldve scored a triple impact on that thick skinned fellow. so i chatted wif phil, listening to his drunken spluring of words.... then passed on to mr johnson. yes, mr johnson! long time neva chatted wif him... and phil finally gave him the scarf i sent back to msia. that took awhile, it reached in christmas, i think. maybe phil needs some time alone with it to wank with it and enjoy it to the fullest. hahaah, another interessting discovery, johnson actually reads this blog. hi johnson! i don't know if thats good or bad. hahah, sorry johnson, but there are times i do lack abit of trust in you, and if ur word gets to the wrong person.... my life in sheffield will be a mystery thereafter. no offense yea. talked to eugene as well, dang his voice sounds so deep, and drunk. adrian was much worse off though... really.. piss drunk. i guess bacardi does have such effect after u drink 4 cups of neat, filled to the brim. regine was fine, i think. she didnt seem annoyed that much by phil being ridiculously drunk, and thats a good thing. i'd rather see the couple be happy together... and not fight. only sad thing... haiih.. no leng luis in the party. not like phil reallly needs any, he got lovely regine with him... but pity the other guys man! they got needs to! hahaha, either way, i'm jealous, i'm home sick. its been so long since i had such drunken frenzy sort of drunkenness. last time would be cha youngs birthday, i think... and that was erm.... getting drunk on beer. i need hard liquer. i need malaysia. *groan*


derek
12:30 AM

Sunday, February 1

number four. i really have no life now, do i? anyway, been spending most the night mindlessly googling around online. lately, its been one of my more favourite (i must admit, it isnt too good snooping around like this), which is googling out names of my frens. i did manage to find several blogs of people i know, some with quite juicy bits (shhh... its a secret for me to know, you not to find out). it is surprising how u'd find so many unexpected people blogging, and the stuff they blog about... WOW. anyway, exams are in 3 days...give or take a few hours... and i really need some motivation to study... otherwise... uh oh...


derek
7:17 AM



third post of the day. i have no life.

today is the birthday of a philip! ok, not technically today in sheffield, but in malaysia, it's already the 1st of february already. the whole gangs gonna be gathering at his place tonite for some chinese new year/birthday gathering, featuring alcohol, gambling, and mindless chattering. suddenly, i feel that homesick syndrom again. argh. chinese new year here truly is a misery compared to msia. i wanna go home. anyway, going off to tongs place to leech on notes again. blog later, probably. once again, happy birthday tall guy !


derek
4:02 AM

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: derek wong : 20 : single : hopeless : student : sheffield : chinese : malaysian :

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