now i am writing in my blog. i am still writing in my blog. now i am writing about writing in my blog. i am still writing about writing in my blog. now i am writing about writing about writing in my blog. i am still writing about writing about writing in my blog.

derek
6:45 AM

well, since practically all bloggers around malaysia and singapore are blogging about this, i figure i'd jump into the bandwagon. for the clueless... TheStar recently had a very interesting article, found here.... regarding this blogger know as SarongPartyGirl which decided to post nude pictures of herself on her blog.
so what can one say about this? firstly, to help her case just a wee little bit... big deal. if you wanna call it artistic or whatever, so be it. its your taste. but the way u posted sounded quite like a call for help. i mean imagine, it went

meaningless bunch of stuff saying "i wanna be in love and i wanna feel in love (when in truth, im just a fucking horny slut seeking attention and claiming i like big white uncooked sausages put in right there)"

and immediatly followed by

At least I have a decent body.. and here's the proof. Bitch *grin*

ok, so the picture isnt the real deal, if you want it, go to her site here, but be warned, her boobs are funny shaped, she uses shadows to hide her belly, and her thighs were featured as the double of dumbos mum in the animated film. i mean, ELEPHANT LEGS for crying out loud. so, miss SPG, where were u thinking?
a) i mean, considering that the post was totally irrelevant to the sudden finale line of "i have a decent bod", its obvious the final line was a call for help, screaming "i want attention, i need attention. im ugly and i need to use photoshop to fix myself up good, so help and look at my photoshopped nude pic, and i hope you guys think of me when u wank, because i get alot of self satisfaction knowing people actually think of me!".... uh huh, sure. for the pityful ones that actually fell for her vile trap without thinking, welcome to the internet, the place where, if you just type "s-e-x" on google, and you're fine... u'd find 1000001 better hot bods than her. and heck, ive found more nude bloggers prior to her. and for a final note, if you claim

And being recognized is important to me, but I don’t and never wanted to be recognized as the Singaporean girl that put her naked tit on the web.

dont post it to start with.

b) whats up with sarung party girl shit anyway. i can picture you as one of those people, whos accent miracolously changes to something sounding like you shot your tongue with a tranquilizer dart, just because a guai lo walked by u. without even talking to you, or looking at you, you just want him to fucking hear u. please... whats up with u and your pityful kind, with the western culture. im living in sheffield right now, i know my fair share of ang mos. and what do they justify about your kind? an easy lay. want a slut to fuck? in fact, want a fuckfest of your life? take a trip down to thailand or sinagapore, and go find some SPGs. they practically throw themself at you.

c) you're 19.

For heaven’s sake, I love stripping, but I’m better at a whole lot of other things that actually take a significant amount of time to develop into something constructive. I would like to be recognized for those things.

seems like a good line... may i suggest geylang road or some strip joint or red light district as you future jobspot location. im sure many would enjoy a 19 year old pussy, and rest assure, a fair share of those would be white hair white men, who seems to fancy you type alot. i mean, heck, you could post a sign saying THE NUDE BLOGGER and that would really help you business thrive. alot. otherwise, just dont go about saying

I’m 19, and I’m not only old enough to know what I’m doing with my life, but I’m also brutally honest with myself and know what’s a sensible course of action and what isn’t.

u r ONLY 19. 2 years down the road, i can promise u'd regret it. if you dont, good for u, come down to malaysia and id lower my standards and give u the fuck of your life, just because u deserve the title slut, and u hit 21, a prime age to start you life as a whore. 19 is young. its barely past childhood. from what i read in your blog, NO, its NOT a post of a patured young woman. its just a cry for help by a helpess kid seeking attention.

im done. im tired. ive talked too much about something which i shouldnt even bother about. bye.

*edit* - curiously, i found her profile on suicidegirls. sadly, im no member, so i cant check out anything other than the main page. can anyone else do me the honors?

derek
11:03 PM

so basicly, i made it. simply put, i graduated. while its a mere pass degree, its still a degree. am i satisfied? no... obviously not. i mean, imagine, i came to sheffield, i was aiming for a 1st class, or a 2nd upper at least. now, its just a mere pass. how much lower can i go? but still, its a degree.
but worse is... how everyone percepts me for this. its just so fucking annoying, really. my parents are disappointed in me. one of my friend hates me for this. some express their congratulations and fake smiles, just out of courtesy. some look at me with those disgusted pity look. and some just snicker behind my back, and in front. fine, i know its just a pass degree. i know its shit. i know my future would be crap. impossbiel to get a job, far more impossible furthering my studies. but still...
i honestly dont know what to say about this... 2 weeks of slacking caused my entire 14 years of education to be flushed down the drain. stupid system, i'd say. but heck, im done with this. fuck it, fuck you.

derek
9:10 PM

heh... heh... heh...
so what can i say? this would be counted as a spur of the moment thingy, which will stick to me my whole life. i dont regret it, i like it.... so thats it. =P

derek
10:08 PM

haha, i swear, this is the most funniest article [people easily offended or do not want to spoil their childhood fantasies, dont click] i read in awhile. hahaha, just salutes to the guy girl that wrote this...
on a side note, its 7am, im in the library reading craps instead of studying. so where am i now? down to my last of last (hopefully), so i shall bid u all farewell, and try to get through this. wish me luck. ta.

*edit* - sorry la babe... after i read ur site, only noticed u r a gal. shall make future note to date u sometime.

derek
2:02 PM

you know, this site is probably one of the best things to happen on the net. its interesting as to the fact that people truly have so many secrets, so many pains, which they are willing to just share anonymously, so they can get it off their chest. fact is.. i can relate to a few of them. some just rings so true. secrets, which can never be told, always to be kept inside. but this site has just got me thinking... however bad my life is... however low it can go... im not the only one out there suffering. there are others, some far worse. and theres light in my life.

derek
8:59 PM

was just taking a look on my web, and noticed the resolutions section on the right. and how two of it was already outdated. one resolution reached, one failed. L.F.C. did win europe... and made we are kings of europe now. but the more prioritized resolution took a big crash and burn into the nether. get 1st class honors. what was i thinking? im no longer who i used to be. right now, i'm happy if i could get through this. sigh

derek
8:51 PM

yes, ive been damn stressed up lately. too many issues, too little time to address them. and from experience, turning to friends has never and will never help. so sorry to everyone if i've been cold/ignorant/insultive/sarcastic or any of that sort lately. life's a bitch, and i'm going through a quarter life crisis.sorry.

derek
10:09 AM

i was just having a webcam chat with a close friend of mine, and it was probably the interesting chats ive had for awhile. goes something like this...

her : what happened to you derek?
me : huh?
her : u look so... chan
me : why leh?
her : dunno... u look so tired... and your eyes look so dead
me : ive been studying alot... sapped all my energy
her : its not that type of tired... has something happened?
me : ive been studying my ass out the past 3 weeks... thats all
her : haih.. not that la... u look emotionally drained
me : haha, emotionally? i tot im the cold hearted bastard wan geh...
her : haha, nola... u got dumped or something lately ah
me : no wor.. no girl to dump me oso
her : haha, u come back msia la, we go out, then i can dump u if u want
me : hahhaha, u say wan ah... owe me a nice date adi wor
her : hahaha, if it makes u feel any better, lets reverse roles... ill do the driving/talking/paying.... u can be the princess of the night
me : wtf? princess? cant i just be the pampered prince?
her : no wor... prince must be charming and polite.. and pay the bills. if u want me to pay, u must be the princess
me : theres no cross-dressing involved, right?
her : hahaha, nola.. just enjoy yourself la
me : like that ah, u owe me one fully pampered date then
her : hahaha, ok, its a promise
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conversation trails off

so now, i have one night of fine dine and splendor all settled for me. any other takers? i promise i'll improve my dead eyes to get any free meal.

derek
9:56 PM

blogs are dangerous. you'd never know whos reading it, and whos not....
you're wary of what u say on your blogs, and risk getting the wrong message across
or worse, getting the right message across at the wrong time.
sigh....

derek
9:38 AM

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