during the awake period of the past few days, my activities have been limited and restricted to the following :-

1. Study
2. Gunbound
3. Cooking/Eat
4. Bathing/Call of Nature
5. Napping

which is really kinda sad. if u wanna count proportions in a day, i'm on a 12 hour sleep plan....1 1/2 hours for 2 meals, including cooking, 1 hour for bathing and frequent answering of natures call, 2 hours napping, an 5 1/2 hours of gunbound. this mean, i can only cram 2 hours of much needed study into my oh so busy schedule. tsk tsk. bad.
but the worse thing is, i've been thnking alot lately (thinking time, i cram within my sitting on the toilet bowl sessions, waiting for my computer to restart session, and short study breaks), about engineering. i mean, heck, i hate it. i despise it. i have no interest whatsoever in it. why did i take it? i'd like to know. i entered SAM with no plans for whats ahead. only thing in my mind, was getting a girlfriend, clubbing alot, and oh, maybe getting some grades in studies. which was one of my lowest priorities.
of course, theres my very brilliant cousin sister of mine, which is a graduate of sheffield mechanical engineering with 1st class honours, as well as 2 of my cousins which are currently taking engineering (well, one was taking, but he changed subject). i guess they was quite an influence on me. i had my sights set on mechanical engineering for abit (thank god i didnt go that way), and then changed to electrical. why? because during the study counselling session i went for, i discovered electrical engineering was close to computer science (so the counsellor said, and wrong she was!), and i had interest in computers, so i thought, hell yea! dumbest mistake of my life.
i figure another reason would be financing. sure, my mum keeps telling me 'dont let our finances get in the way of your future', and my dad goes 'if you want it, ill find a way to pay for it'. but could they? could i bear asking for so much? and its not like they gave me all the freedom to choose. the two main criterias they wanted me to fulfil was basicly, 1. minimum of 2 years overseas study. and 2. study in UK, no australia. to this pretty much screws up my life already. i mean, heck, i've looked at twinning courses inti had to offer and such. only choice was sheffield. it fits both criteries fine.. but did i have any other choice? given a chance, i'd be doing a 4 year course in computer science in the university of southern california, or maybe MIT. or even if no US of A, maybe australia. UK wouldnt be a keen choice for me. sure, i love the environment, but can they provide the courses i need? i need programming, state of the art languages and courses. UK varsities are more, backwards for this case.
you see, my keen interest lies in programming. not that i have great knowledge about it, but i can pick up fast (when i have the mood, which doesnt come often, hence why i'm not bill gates), and i am willing to do on my free time. like my old SAM IT Studies lecturer told me, programming is more of an art than science, theres not one single fixed method to do it. theres many ways to get to that point, some better, some worse. and thats what i like. cracking my head over how to simplify a program, how to integrate a function into it, or just finding out whats wrong with it. its like mounting a challenge for me, one which i will probably work on to solve. its totally different from engineering. theres a bunch of formulas given, and bla bla bla. which would probably be why i loved my 1st year C Programming Class, why i took the dreaded Microcontrollers Programming design project, and why i'm doing a Electronics Systems major next year.
so what can i say? do i love engineering? no. was it a mistake to take engineering? yes. would i jump at the chance to change courses? yes. so what can i say? my whole future is already a mistake. i'm doomed. eek.

derek
11:39 AM

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