exams are such a pain. this afternoon, after my paper, i was sitting in my room, reminiscing the exam and what i did, and a tear actually trickled down my cheek. it wasnt a flood of tears (thank god for that), but this is curiously the first time ive actually felt so bad about an exam. last time i remember this, was in PMR and my dissasterous results.. but this is just a single exam paper. one. uno. satu. and im weeping over it? this really pops the bubble of macho-ism ive been building myself for the past years. sheesh. how is it even possible! i thought my tear ducts actually stopped working already! sheesh! i know.. i know... i shouldnt be thinking about the past. look into the future... whats done is done. but still.. i knew the answers to that, i knew it. i know how to do that paper, every single bloody question of it! but why couldn't i solve it? i just couldn't write out what was in my mind. it was all a blank when i really try to remember it. this is sad. i'm depressed now. and the worse thing about these moments, you have no one to console to. that's the annoying thing about being me... i make myself such a self-sustaining asshole, that when i'm really down, there's no one there for me. sob.

derek
1:50 PM

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